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Accomplishing vs living

This comic today:
http://pajamadiaries.com/comics/june-25-2017/

I'm one of those people who makes massive to-do lists, partly so I don't forget later on, and partly because I like crossing things off the lists. I've done this for at least as long as the kids have been alive. I sometimes post "what got done" lists here. If I do something not on the list, I add it to the list so I can cross it off.

And that gives me a hit of satisfaction. I enjoy getting stuff done.

In which case, is it wrong to enjoy the accomplishment? I know the current mantra repeated everywhere is "mindfulness", which tbh I'm getting tired of hearing. I also know I'm a Type A personality in a family full of them. I like getting stuff done. Is it wrong to be that way?

Now, if I go to a museum, I don't just say, okay, we got in, I took a quick look around, we're done! I do take my time through it and look at everything. (Drives my kids nuts.) If we're at an art gallery (rare but does happen), same thing, at least as long as it's realistic art and not modern art, which I don't get. If I'm playing a game, I like to check out the backgrounds and try for all the dialog trees and see what there is to see. When I work on crafts, I take my time and do it right.

But man, I love being able to mark things off my list, too. Even weekly things like groceries, tanking up the car, going to the post office, etc. I put those on the list even when I do them every weekend, and mark them off. It feels good.

Because sometimes my brain won't let me rest until a thing is off the mental to-do list; either done, or put on the physical to-do list.

Early on today's list is tanking up the car and going to the store because someone put my squash in the coldest part of the fridge and it froze solid. D:

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sammyfrog
Jun. 25th, 2017 06:19 pm (UTC)
Heck, for that matter, why can't a person do both? Enjoy doing the task and getting it done/checking it off the list. Why does it have to be one or the other? Who's to say which is right? It's an individual thing, I would think.

That said, I don't think I can do both or either. X) I have lists, and I do cross things off of them, but it's so infrequent that I don't feel accomplished or satisfied. Plus, I can't enjoy doing the task because I put enormous pressure on myself to get it done quickly, and it's never quick enough, and I don't like the result because I'll never do anything well enough to suit myself, and I'm disappointed in myself, and geez, I need to learn how to give myself a break. But I'm afraid if I do, I'll become even more self-indulgent and less productive than I already am. It's lots of war and drama in Sammy Frog's head.
laridian
Jun. 25th, 2017 10:15 pm (UTC)
I have to put the things in my brain onto a to-do list so I can get them out of my brain and focus on getting things done. :)

I just feel like the whole "mindfulness" thing is getting blown so out of proportion. "Be mindful of everything you do! EVERYTHING!" and, y'know.
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